Holy Toledo

Aaron Frey won Homecoming king.

I love it.

Switches, changes, and the like

It's 12.30am and I'm completely done with everything for tomorrow. I even worked on stuff for Wednesday and got all that done. I think this is going to be a productive week.

So lately I've been rather unhappy here at Bradley. I was never really able to completely pinpoint why I disliked it so much. As this year has progressed, the more I have been set on transferring to Loyola or DePaul. This weekend, it hit me that it wasn't the people, location, etc. that made me dislike it here so much. It was what I am studying. For those of you who don't know, I am an accounting and entrepreneurship double major. I really like all of my business management classes (for entrepreneurship) but I completely despise my accounting classes. Ever since starting these classes, I've hated it. I know that I have the ability to be an accountant and that I might even be good at it but I, by no means, have the passion for it. It's not something that I even remotely enjoy. So this weekend I am going to talk to my parents about dropping my accounting major and adding marketing with a specialization in sales management. It's rather exciting.

After realizing all that, it feels as if a weight has been lifted from my spirit. I think God has been leading me towards this decision but has allowed me to learn and grow along the way. He has given me a passion and wants me to pursue it.

Oh and I also got a new job - which means that I got to quit BBB. Huzzah! And I should be hearing back from Caterpillar later this week about an internship. Please be praying that all these jobs/opportunities work out.

Questions

Why am I in such a terrible mood this week?
Is it because I have a bajillion things to do?
Maybe it's because I haven't seen anyone in weeks.

How can God feel so distant?
Or am I the one that's far away?

What does my future hold?
Am I supposed to transfer?
Or does God want me to stay here?

How can my mood change so suddenly?
Especially against the people that I'm closest to.
Why can't things just go back to normal?

Why do I desire things/outcomes that aren't good for me?

But most importantly...
Why do I always wear my glasses on days that end up raining?

Be the Center

Things change.
- People - Circumstances - Attitudes -
Feelings & emotions are so fickle.

My only constant:
Jesus Christ.

I've lost my peace.
And I want it back.
I won't let Satan steal my joy.
I won't let him tell me lies.
I am a princess of the Most High King.

War is on the horizon.
Something huge is about to happen.
I can feel it coming.
Satan's attacks are just too well placed.
Souls are going to be won.
Souls are going to be lost.
Be prepared to fight like you've never fought before.
Ephesians 6.10-18